11/52 Mummy, I am NOT IMPRESSED

 

Mixed Feelings

This week several things happened which I have very mixed emotions about. None of them are huge things and were all things I either half-expected or knew was going to happen.

Following a letter from the council telling me that in line with new government regulations my rent would be going up nearly £10 a week which is quite a lot in my budget, I have caved in and applied for some housing benefit. Although my flat is privately owned, it is council managed. The rent between two people would be quite reasonable, but as I am only one and not on a huge wage, any increases are more than usually unwelcome. I have thought about it on and off since Wriggles was born and I knew I would be a single parent, but with working part-time and topping up with tax credits, I have been proud that so far I have been able to manage and cover it all. It made me feel more independent and that I was doing something good for my family. With an increase though and none in my wages, it is just too tight and I need some help until Wriggles is older and I can work more. At present even if I took on extra hours, the cost of childcare will render these useless especially with no local family to soak up babysitting duties. Plus I would be (more) shattered. Although I'm relieved to have such a system available when people do just need a helping hand, I wish it wasn't me having to use it. I know it's not forever, it just feels like falling into another stereotype.

When I got back from doing this at the library, I found a letter I have been expecting since October. It is Wriggles' referral to Speech and Language, announcing a home visit in just under a fortnight.

Star Patient

A proud moment today as Wriggles crawled onto the trampoline at our rebound therapy session and her physio Jemma exclaimed she was her "star patient". This is brilliant news and such a boost, after more weeks of food refusal and a bug creeping in. Although Wriggles is the most able member of the group, it is still lovely to hear that other people are just as proud as me and see ever little change as a huge cause for celebration. The extent that the hydrotherapy lessons have helped Wriggles explore her legs and strengthen her torso and core muscles has surprised everyone.